Relapse

By Mac Guerreiro And just like that,It feels like it’s all gone,The painstaking work on becoming okay with the image in the mirror,It’s all disappeared,To where eye’m unsure,But it’s left me raptured,Weak,Questioning,Avoiding my reflection,Forcing my way through interactions,Eye just want it to stop,Eye want the work eye cultivated to come back,Eye want to be okay …

Lighter

By Mac Guerreiro The world has felt kinder,The breath has felt easier to inhale,The words have fallen with more levity,Today it all feels heavy,My body,My mind,My heart,The tears seem to be the only ones,That find effortlessness,As they edge the corners of my eyes,Some well over,Others retreat,All with ease,Eye envy them with a fire,For eye would …

Still

By Mac Guerreiro Stand still and clench your jaw till it hurts,Stand still because you don’t have words,The words you have will only detonate,The words you have will only push him away,Stand still and crawl out of your skin,Stand still because you’re scared of losing,Losing it all,Losing him,He says impossible but damn don’t you wanna …

Emergence

By Mac Guerreiro It feels like taking my first breath all over again, But lasting so much longer than before, Eye can feel the trust and strength rise, It fills my core, This fire, When was the last time it burned this way? Eye can’t recall, And even though there is deep pain, There’s also …

With You

By Mac Guerreiro Eye thought eye’d have to wait, Eye would be forty before ever getting to look into your eyes, Eye’m glad eye was wrong, So grateful we didn’t need to wait this long, Because one thing eye know to be true, This journey feels much more exhilarating with you.

Harder to Love

By Mac Guerreiro You didn’t mean it like this, But the road to hell is paved with good intentions, You meant to prepare me, Instead your words branded me, “Harder to love” Don’t come too close, She’s as difficult as she is sweet, And sweet is what she’s dripping with, A candy coated ball of …

Sweatshirt

By Mac Guerreiro It’s not ideal, It’s not you, But it’s the closest eye get at times, Times such as these which you’re off living, And Eye’m here trying, This reminds me to not try so hard, Much like you will when we talk next, This isn’t ideal, But it’s second best.

Everything

By Mac Guerreiro It’s that place, The place just before the nothingness, The place in which longing for nothingness is all you seem to be able to do, It’s a place in which all things buzz around, Nearly taking your head off if you don’t move out of their way, It’s that place, A place …

Wasting Space

By Mac Guerreiro And suddenly, What eye thought was impossible happens, Eye feel as if eye deserve to be here less than the moment prior, And the moment prior felt much like the present, Why stay? Wouldn’t it be better for you to be on your way? You’re slowly seeing how Eye’m not what you …

My Own

By Mac Guerreiro Forever attempting to try what works for others rather than discover what works for me, What’s so scary about seeking discovery? Maybe the uncertainty, But Eye’m certain of this, What works for others is rarely something eye can replicate, Much less successfully, Back to trial and error, Breathing through the terror, The …