By Mac Guerreiro My hands are shaking, Eye have a feeling they’ve been shaking all day, My heart is racing, Maybe it’s been this way, Maybe eye just didn’t notice, A “ball of anxiety” That started as joke, But the truth of it set in the more eye spoke, Eye’m already a whirlwind internally, Though […]
By Mac Guerreiro Eye’m starting to see, Eye’m starting to see how this isn’t about me, How a trail of hurt has left you scarred, How for you this “relationship thing” is already hard, Eye’ve been feeling wronged, Because if roles were flipped forgiveness would have already been a given, Bringing you closer to me […]
By Mac Guerreiro Eye have to be prepared, This is what eye’ve realized, Maybe someday my character won’t shift in your eyes, But expecting that now is emotional suicide, Hurt once, That’s my fault, Hurt twice, Well eye supposed it’s my fault too, Because my expectations assured me that you, Might see me for who […]
By Mac Guerreiro It’s meant for children, So no wonder it quells my inner child, Control to the ultimate degree with plenty of surprises to keep me in anticipation, If only life were this simple, Then eye think, “Maybe it is.”
By Mac Guerreiro Eye’ve forgotten, The trouble is eye’ve forgotten what Eye’m to remember, Eye feel so far from that innocent ember, The one that glowed so fiercely long ago, And now it’s nothing but a sizzle, Struggling to stay aglow, Eye ask myself “what happened?” And tears rush forth, The trauma still too much […]
By Mac Guerreiro Eye wish eye could tell you eye deserved that, That my message warranted such a response, Maybe it did, Maybe writing and sending something so mean and aggressive made you feel better, Maybe in hurting me you felt validated, Eye know eye hurt you, Eye knew it when eye apologized, Eye felt […]
By Mac Guerreiro It physically hurts to sit here and feel a million miles away, My heart feels tight, As if a mighty hand won’t let it breathe, As if this hand can only squeeze, And squeeze tighter, Then never let go, That’s how it feels to be so close yet so far away from […]
By Mac Guerreiro Maybe one day eye’ll stop, Eye’ll stop feeling like Eye’m not worth staying, Eye’ll stop feeling like it’s so easy for you to just walk away, Maybe one day, Maybe.
By Mac Guerreiro After tonight, Eye just wanted a hug, Eye wanted you, To sit while you finished up, Talking when we could, It didn’t go quite that way, Can’t say it went the way eye wanted.
By Mac Guerreiro You’re safe, You’re held, Eye got you, This was a breakthrough, A coming back together of sorts, The part that is present, Embracing the part that’s been lost, A sense of safety eye never trusted myself to provide, Now feels more comfortable inside, Eye’m immensely grateful for this shift, Looking ahead to […]