Easy

By Mac Guerreiro Eye’ve gotten used to being a lot. A lot of feelings, a lot of volume, a lot of thoughts… just a lot. It’s served me to be myself in this way for the most part. Whenever eye set my mind to learning or accomplishing something eye am all in with the whole …

It’s Okay to Not Be Okay

By Mac Guerreiro No distractions today, just all the feelings spilling out of me faster than eye can decipher them. No one’s arms to lie in…. how convenient. The feeling of abandonment is even more visceral when eye’m the one doing the abandoning. So eye cry. All. The. Way. Home. Maybe eye’ll sleep when eye …

If

By Mac Guerreiro Fear of something that hasn’t happened, Fear of this, It keeps me in paralyses, Not even venturing forth, Into what it might feel like, How it might be, This feels imprisoning, So eye realize this and step back, See things from a difference place, *** If you walked away, It would hurt, …

Here

By Mac Guerreiro His somber energy spoke for itself. The way his eyes look like they’re 90% here and how they’d search around for things that are always in the same place. Eye fight the impulse to climb over the marble and wrap myself around him, my hand finding that one spot on the back …

Long Goodbyes

By Mac Guerreiro Eye set the alarm with an hour to spare, Because eye don’t like leaving in a rush, No time to kiss or hug, No time to tell you good morning, No time to lay with you, Awake and consciously receiving the Magic we share, Seems like little things, Little things that make …

Moving Through

By Mac Guerreiro In a world where no one wants to feel anything negative and problem solving is so greatly revered (too revered) it’s tough to seek support for just feeling what’s moving through in the present moment. Today didn’t feel great; yes eye was sleep deprived but eye also had a sense of powerlessness …

Midnight Secrets

By Mac Guerreiro Eye have an eating disorder…. just saying that makes me fear what you think because this broad term has been confined by the eating disorders we’ve grown familiar with. Anorexia, bulimia and even binge eating are the ones you think of when those words are uttered. Well Eye’m neither starving myself nor …

All At Once

By Mac Guerreiro Eye’m scared to write about you,Because eye know you’ll read every word,You’ll know exactly how eye feel,Because my writing can’t lie,But neither do my eyes,And into those you tend to take deep dives,Eye often wonder what you see,Do you see the hidden parts?The ones that have been deeply scarred?Do you see the …

What A Shame

By Mac Guerreiro Eye’m pretty decent at feeling my feelings, or rather, that’s what eye’d like to believe. Eye’m pretty decent until eye feel shame for it. Until eye encounter territory in which feelings are frowned upon. That’s what dating feels like in LA in 2019. In a city full of people whom no longer …