The Spiral

by Mac Guerreiro It’s been such a long time since eye’ve written here, and every time this is the case eye simply HAVE to remark it. So much has changed, externally and internally. Eye have grown. Eye have felt my heart beam and my third eye nearly burst. Eye have felt my mind swell with …

Late Night Musing

By Mac Guerreiro Eye have this theory that watching recent children’s movies is immensely healing for my inner child and in some cases my own generational trauma. The amount of tears and feelings that they elicit within me both due to content matter and the pure fact that something this meaningful is out there for …

Expansion

By Mac Guerreiro Eye’ve been absent for a bit,That’s happened from time to time,For this blog is only one small side,Of this career eye’m manifesting,Thank you for reading my words,For following along,For holding space for my hard feelings and thoughts,This isn’t goodbye,It’ll never be,Simply a warning,That consistency with this blog isn’t my priority,Some day eye …

Missing

By Mac Guerreiro It’s gone,A huge chunk,For how long?Has it always been missing?Eye’m trying to listen,To give myself what eye need,Eye’m trying but failing,Grasping at nothings,Because eye don’t know the difference between need and want,Do eye want to be held,Or do eye need it?Eye can’t move,So my brain does,“You could have what you want,If you …

Alone

By Mac Guerreiro Don’t move,Not for this spot,If you do,You may fall apart,There’s no time for that,There’s no one to catch you,What if you never get back up?

Thank You For Stopping By

By Mac Guerreiro Eye want to learn, eye’ve been doing my best. It’s not enough. Eye’m sorry eye made you feel this way. Eye understand if you don’t want to stay.

Almost

By Mac Guerreiro Eye almost asked you to stay,“Please hold me”“Please”Because when you leave eye’ll crumple,Eye knew it by the way my body turned to stone when we hugged,Eye didn’t mean to ruin the day,To make you go away,So soon,And it’s on me,Eye’m so sorry.Please come back,Just today,Please let me make it okay.

Surviving

By Mac Guerreiro Sometimes eye wonder if anyone ever imploded from feeling so much. If not, maybe eye’ll be the first.

Uncontrollable

By Mac Guerreiro The worst,Eye feel as if eye am truly the worst,The worst for feeling the need to control,The worst for being unable to control it,The worst for not being able to see anything else,Just the worst,And there seems to be nothing to do for it,Except grapple with my need to control the uncontrollable.

**Sigh

By Mac Guerreiro Eye didn’t mean to stop it,That wasn’t my intention,Yet in your place eye might have had the same reaction.