Unpopular

By Mac Guerreiro Eye learned something recently and it’s that when a person is rejected by their peers in their formative years the nervous system registers that as pain… physical pain. Yes, the exclusion leaves you feeling pain. For me that pain sits in my heart. It’s sat there from the moment eye first felt …

Running

By Mac Guerreiro Self-sabotage. For a time now eye’ve struggled with the concept. You see, eye’ve compiled much evidence derived from my own personal growth journey and that of others that suggests there is no such thing when it comes down to it, because every bit of one’s being only does what they believe will …

Those Whom Were Here

By Mac Guerreiro It was during a viewing of “Outlander.” The Cherokee men and women stood with the woods proudly behind them. They joined Jamie, Claire and family around the fire but before the women sat they shared a moment. A moment of wisdom that seems to come most often from those women whose hair …

Streaming Away

By Mac Guerreiro Eye joke and say that eye am A LOT. Perhaps some of you have gathered that after reading my writing or maybe checking out my podcast; which for one or both eye am so grateful. In spite of my joking spirit about the previously stated fact eye am just now realizing how …

Eye Might

By Mac Guerreiro Eye haven’y smoked today, cannabis. That’s new, even though eye’ve been actively saying eye’ll stop. This is the closest to addiction that eye’ve gotten although my issues with food felt very similar. There’s a place close to me that’s open till 2AM, and eye still may go there, but right now eye’m …

Metamorphosis

By Mac Guerreiro Have you ever heard of a hyper-sensitive person? They likely cry a lot and seem to wear their heart on their sleeve, for lack of a better saying. Eye’m that person and eye always have been, for the most part. That last bit is referring to this block eye’ve dealt with for …

Here

By Mac Guerreiro And there he was, standing, looking at me lovingly. Eye wondered how much he’d seen. Had he caught my shoulders moving subtly as eye sobbed, filled with love and sorrow at the sight and sensation of Mother Ocean? Could he hear the conversation we were having? Then it became clear that it …

Eating in Order

By Mac Guerreiro A while back eye wrote about my eating issues, rather, my wanting to eat to avoid my issues. This is an update. Somehow as eye’ve been patiently dissolving the barriers between myself and these wounded children inside, my desire to escape via food just isn’t something that’s been popping up. Eye find …

Heart, Mind & Matter

By Mac Guerreiro Lately, as the prospects of LA actually beginning to open back up on May 15th appear to be more and more likely, eye’ve been feeling a bit uneasy. Sometimes restless and other times utterly overwhelmed. It’s my natural inclination to distract myself from both of those states, pretend eye don’t feel these …

Slut

By Mac Guerreiro By definition the word “slut” signifies “a woman with many sexual partners” and/or “a woman with low standards of cleanliness” … Yes, eye looked this up. Eye did so in order to get VERY real with myself before eye hopped over here to write this post. Eye did so because Eye’m certain …