Hard Learning

By Mac Guerreiro Eye should have known better,Eye can honor that,Eye supposed eye just didn’t expect it,For your limited views of something to obscure your knowledge of me,The years of friendship,Of growing,Of learning,Of being ourselves unapologetically,It’s clear now,Because you felt the need to clarify,As if who eye am wasn’t enough,Enough to let you know that …

Shut Off

By Mac Guerreiro The dead plants have become a fixture,The boxes too,And now add the clothes and the dishes,They won’t get done,Not tonight,Eye’ve barely enough energy to set myself right,As right as eye’ll get,We’ll see how much that is,Eye’d like to think eye’ll do it all,The repotting,The washing,The throwing away,But knowing me eye won’t have …

3 AM

By Mac Guerreiro My jaw is tight,Eye look around and you’re gone,We didn’t mean to fall asleep for one,For two,It felt good,But then you leave and it’s just me and anxiety,About the mess that’s everywhere,The dishes that aren’t done,The water that needs to be run,But doing it now isn’t going to solve anything,Eye’ll be anxiety …

Bricks

By Mac Guerreiro It’s just a unpacking,It’s not that much,But it is,And it hits me like tons of bricks,Because my dishes aren’t done either,And it feels that eye have no time,It feels that it has to be done now,Because eye can’t think with the chaos around,Even though it’s my own creation,My heart accelerates,Eye start to …

Forward

By Mac Guerreiro What does progress look like?Like choosing differently,Standing still,Where you would have stirred before,Progress looks like finally seeing an open door,It can look like shifting your gaze,Seeing things in a different way,But one thing is certain,It seldom looks the same.

Chill

By Mac Guerreiro It’s so cold,The shadow you cast,Eye have a really hard time with that,Even when eye feel eye deserve it,When eye’ve earned it,The chill reaches my core,And eye don’t know if we’re okay anymore,It’s so cold in the shadow you cast,And Eye’m faced with a fact,Eye can’t rely on your sun,Eye have to …

Weak

By Mac Guerreiro Sometimes eye wish you didn’t read this,Eye’d be spared some feelings of people pleasing,Eye’d be free of thoughts that keep me from writing,Writing the stuff that sucks,The stuff eye only write when it won’t remain inside,Because Eye’m dramatic,Eye always have been,When every emotion is so big this happens,Then tac on the neglect,Drama,How …

Touch

By Mac Guerreiro On my lips,On my hips,Touch,Feel me up,From thighs to waist,With just a taste,You open the flood gates.

Uncharted

By Mac Guerreiro Eye’m going to bed soon,Do eye call you?We’re not fighting,But last we talked you weren’t happy with me,Rightfully,And eye want to give you your space,Eye could text,Just to say goodnight,But eye don’t know if even that feels right,So eye write this instead,To get it all out of my head,Eye don’t know what …

Eye Do

By Mac Guerreiro You tell me eye don’t need to apologize,But it doesn’t feel right,Because you’re letting me know eye hurt you,Unintentionally of course,But it still hurts,And you’re so valid to feel that way,But then to downplay,No need to say sorry,Just going through my own shit,Really?Because you’re speaking like you do when you want to …