Relapse

By Mac Guerreiro And just like that,It feels like it’s all gone,The painstaking work on becoming okay with the image in the mirror,It’s all disappeared,To where eye’m unsure,But it’s left me raptured,Weak,Questioning,Avoiding my reflection,Forcing my way through interactions,Eye just want it to stop,Eye want the work eye cultivated to come back,Eye want to be okay …

Lighter

By Mac Guerreiro The world has felt kinder,The breath has felt easier to inhale,The words have fallen with more levity,Today it all feels heavy,My body,My mind,My heart,The tears seem to be the only ones,That find effortlessness,As they edge the corners of my eyes,Some well over,Others retreat,All with ease,Eye envy them with a fire,For eye would …

The Journey of Anahata

By Mac Guerreiro Eye thought my throat was blocked,My indigo center cut off,Eye thought,It was to my surprise that my throat is fine,She’s a light,Guiding my heart towards her,For my heart is the one,Stuck listening to the same drum,An old song,That sings of betrayal,Of danger,Of loss,She holds on to all of the costs,The injuries suffered,Created …

Testing Grounds

By Mac Guerreiro Slide,As low as you can,Eye’ll remain where eye am,And the effort it takes is no joke,But what good would it do if eye spoke?The courage is lacking,The honesty even more so,Missing both is a recipe for stunting growth,When growth is the name of my game,That kind of energy can drive me insane,And …

Waves

By Mac Guerreiro It hits me fast and hard,“How fucking lucky are you?”And eye am,SO SO SO,Blessed,The love in my life is the best,From all fronts,No questions asked,And it hit me again,Something new,Something eye hadn’t seen,The love is just mirroring me,And eye couldn’t stop crying,Tears of all kinds from all sides,The broken spirit of my …

N8

By Mac Guerreiro You laugh when Eye’m myself,You admit you need my help,You enjoy all that eye am,Even when eye can’t,You show me what it is to grow,You remind me that you know,Just how capable eye can be,Of keeping you beside me,A reminder eye need more often than eye’d like,You don’t judge me,You just hold …

POS

By Mac Guerreiro Trying to be kind,Trying,Trying to remind myself eye can,Trying,But it’s not working,Nothing works.

Always

By Mac Guerreiro Eye am calling,Do you hear me?Eye am calling,Through my waters,My skies,In the birds’ cries,Eye call to You,To sniff every flower,To enjoy every one of my showers,Be it warm in your home,Or standing on my ground,Eye call you to breathe in every sound,Every sight,Both mine and what’s projected in your mind’s eye,Feel every …

Still

By Mac Guerreiro Stand still and clench your jaw till it hurts,Stand still because you don’t have words,The words you have will only detonate,The words you have will only push him away,Stand still and crawl out of your skin,Stand still because you’re scared of losing,Losing it all,Losing him,He says impossible but damn don’t you wanna …

Rabbit Hole

By Mac Guerreiro Snip snip,Slip slip,Be careful now,A minor attachment to a little thought,And you’re going down,Down down,Into the rabbit hole,The one that threatens to steal your soul,One self hating thought,That’s all it takes,And you’re on your way,Down,Down,When eye finally reach the bottom,Will it make a sound?