By Mac Guerreiro Trying to be kind,Trying,Trying to remind myself eye can,Trying,But it’s not working,Nothing works.
Author Archives: Mystical Mac
Always
By Mac Guerreiro Eye am calling,Do you hear me?Eye am calling,Through my waters,My skies,In the birds’ cries,Eye call to You,To sniff every flower,To enjoy every one of my showers,Be it warm in your home,Or standing on my ground,Eye call you to breathe in every sound,Every sight,Both mine and what’s projected in your mind’s eye,Feel every …
Still
By Mac Guerreiro Stand still and clench your jaw till it hurts,Stand still because you don’t have words,The words you have will only detonate,The words you have will only push him away,Stand still and crawl out of your skin,Stand still because you’re scared of losing,Losing it all,Losing him,He says impossible but damn don’t you wanna …
Rabbit Hole
By Mac Guerreiro Snip snip,Slip slip,Be careful now,A minor attachment to a little thought,And you’re going down,Down down,Into the rabbit hole,The one that threatens to steal your soul,One self hating thought,That’s all it takes,And you’re on your way,Down,Down,When eye finally reach the bottom,Will it make a sound?
ED
By Mac Guerreiro A dis-ease,A sneaky one too,It hides,Sometimes for so long,Till it rears again,And you’re left wondering if you ever healed at all,Funny how it’s named,When it’s not about that,Not one bit,How am eye back in the heat of it?
The Start
By Mac Guerreiro Feeling myself,Hearing myself,Being my Self,It’s about fucking time isn’t it?And yet,This journey is infinite
Searching
By Mac Guerreiro She’s searching for grace,The grace she can rarely give herself,The grace that would have helped,The grace that never came,And was replaced by shame,She searches for it,She doesn’t know it,But when she finds it she holds on,She tries to learn before it’s gone.
Unpopular
By Mac Guerreiro Eye learned something recently and it’s that when a person is rejected by their peers in their formative years the nervous system registers that as pain… physical pain. Yes, the exclusion leaves you feeling pain. For me that pain sits in my heart. It’s sat there from the moment eye first felt …
Self-Pity Party
By Mac Guerreiro Eye behave like a victim,Eye’m not easy to love,Eye’m just too much,Eye’m dramatic and needy,When eye try to make you happy eye mess up,Eye’m sad and lonely,And people’s opinions of me affect me more than eye care to admit,Eye try and eye try,But eye just go back to feeling like a piece …
Scarred
By Mac Guerreiro Eye don’t even know why eye care,Eye’m not friends of theirs,And they wouldn’t even know me,If it weren’t for you,We don’t seem to sing the same tunes,Yet eye want them to like me,Or eye want to not care,Either way,Eye’m neither here nor there,Instead eye’m stuck in a loop,With the mean girls from …