Unpopular

By Mac Guerreiro Eye learned something recently and it’s that when a person is rejected by their peers in their formative years the nervous system registers that as pain… physical pain. Yes, the exclusion leaves you feeling pain. For me that pain sits in my heart. It’s sat there from the moment eye first felt …

Self-Pity Party

By Mac Guerreiro Eye behave like a victim,Eye’m not easy to love,Eye’m just too much,Eye’m dramatic and needy,When eye try to make you happy eye mess up,Eye’m sad and lonely,And people’s opinions of me affect me more than eye care to admit,Eye try and eye try,But eye just go back to feeling like a piece …

Scarred

By Mac Guerreiro Eye don’t even know why eye care,Eye’m not friends of theirs,And they wouldn’t even know me,If it weren’t for you,We don’t seem to sing the same tunes,Yet eye want them to like me,Or eye want to not care,Either way,Eye’m neither here nor there,Instead eye’m stuck in a loop,With the mean girls from …

Just Like That

By Mac Guerreiro And just like that none of it matters,It’s not enough,The years of wounds that began healing,Start unraveling.

Eye Know

By Mac Guerreiro Eye know you have your reasons,Eye know you just want what’s best,Eye know eye haven’t been that,And eye know it’s hard to see,If you’re not him or me,It’s hard to find the ways,In which eye consider him every day,The feelings and traumas eye face,They’re not excuses,Eye know that,And it’s taken me a …

Upward

By Mac Guerreiro “I want your midnights,”“Please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere”-Taylor SwiftLyrics that speak my soul,That speak to my fears,To my deepest desires,Eye don’t know how,But eye think eye know when,It’s human development,Bend or break,We continue to bend,Closer to each other every time,You and eye,The triggers are still …

F*ing Welcome

By Mac Guerreiro And just like that,She grew,And she knew,This isn’t what it was,I was stuck in a loop,“Welcome to the group,Eye’m so glad you’re here,”And the world looks a little bit clearer.

Trusting

By Mac Guerreiro Eye know eye have to let this go,Last weekend,The choices you made,The choice,Eye have moments when eye do,And others where eye’m back there again,And the pain is so real,It’s hard to simply sit here and feel,Because it’s all consuming,But eye’m reminding myself,To relish in the easier moments,The ones in which eye remember …

Frozen

By Mac Guerreiro Eye’m so sad today,There are no other words,Even now eye am my own worst judge,Even now that eye understand,How never knowing safety formed the land,My heart,My mind,My nervous system,All operating as victims,Eye know it it,Eye see it,Eye work at it day by day,Sometimes it just feels overwhelming,Most times,Actually.

Two-Way

By Mac Guerreiro Eye’ve never been great at receiving,At opening my lane on that two-way street,Receiving love especially,Eye’ve always felt as if my feelings weren’t real,Because that’s what those outside of me said,Eye internalized that,Deeper than eye care to share,So eye get lost in my own head,Unable to let you in,Even when you’re waiting at …