Weak

By Mac Guerreiro

Sometimes eye wish you didn’t read this,
Eye’d be spared some feelings of people pleasing,
Eye’d be free of thoughts that keep me from writing,
Writing the stuff that sucks,
The stuff eye only write when it won’t remain inside,
Because Eye’m dramatic,
Eye always have been,
When every emotion is so big this happens,
Then tac on the neglect,
Drama,
How am eye to escape that,
Eye can’t,
Not within me anyway,
Not today,
You say we’re okay,
Parts of me won’t believe it,
Not yet,
Because it’s not safe,
Because “we’re okay” doesn’t seem to mean you’ll stay,
My logical brain,
Tries to calm me down,
But these parts don’t listen,
Not ever and not now,
So eye’ll hug myself close,
And just wait,
Because Eye’m weak in this regard,
Always expecting the worst card,
The Tower,
Where it all falls apart,
And when Eye’m wrong,
And eye live to love you another day,
Eye still can’t seem to convince myself you’ll stay,
Eye don’t know how much time it’ll take,
Eye don’t know how long you’ll remain,
Guess eye’ll see,
Damn,
Eye feel so weak.

Published by Mystical Mac

Born in Brazil and raised in California eye am an artist better identified as a conscious creator and intuitive healer. My gift for storytelling in various forms as well as my keen perception into the metaphysical allows me to share my perspective in ways that eye hope are of help and use to those around me. Thank you for reading, listening and watching; it means the world to me.

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