By Mac Guerreiro
A while back eye wrote about my eating issues, rather, my wanting to eat to avoid my issues. This is an update.
Somehow as eye’ve been patiently dissolving the barriers between myself and these wounded children inside, my desire to escape via food just isn’t something that’s been popping up. Eye find myself making more mindful choices without having to try too hard.
Eye know it’s in large part due to my willingness to allow myself to feel that void that this issue is resolving itself and even though eye knew this would happen, to experience it is a whole other thing. My body FEELS right, no extra bloat, but not skinny, eye feel like my optimal self in spite of not having access to a gym or hot yoga for too long. It’s not even about weight, it’s about proportions for me and eye feel it when eye’m out of alignment in that way. In the past it would push me into more self-depreciating food behaviors but today Eye’m able to pause, breathe and reassess.
This is new, it’s exciting. To not just feel, but see the healing.