By Mac Guerreiro
Today my roommate and eye took a little focusing-helper in order to deep clean the apartment as well as do my taxes, in my case. As eye lay here typing this on my phone my heart still races. That little blue pill is no joke. Eye can certainly see how college students and the like can get very readily hooked; however, we are not here to talk about that aspect of Addie today. This is more of a self reflection as every substance that alters us can offer some sort of awareness at worst and guidance at best.
Eye don’t have what most would call an addictive personality and it’s likely due to my awareness of my relationships with the substances eye choose to put through my body. With that said, the reason eye see the appeal to those whom don’t share said awareness is due to the laser focus as well as the sense of will that often comes along with a big rush of our good friend Addie. Weirdly enough, the focus and will are almost not worth the anxiety, but when done only when it feels 100% right and productive eye find the results are very pleasing.
Eye’ll close on something that may open plenty of more doors on this blog in the realms of self reflection. This anxiety pokes at the distrust that eye have in myself to keep my most treasured commitments. Eye’ve been aware of this wound for a while and yet just now have found myself being able to push through and act anyway.