By Mac Guerreiro
Eye received my unemployment today. Collectively it’s not even enough for rent. It honestly feels as if eye can’t seem to catch a break. Of course, Eye’m aware that so many of us are in this together and eye feel fortunate to get this money regardless. All that aside eye have to honor the feelings of pure frustration. It took me a year and some to get my footing in LA, to find jobs that support me and my art in a way that allows me to create without the anxiety of wondering if eye can pay rent, eat, put gas in my car, feed my animals, etc. Finally eye find myself in a good place, paying off my credit card, putting money in my savings account and all the things that give me this confidence that eye am on the right path. That eye’ve fucking done it. Then the crisis hit… this pandemic that could have been evaded if we’d taken it seriously enough.
Regardless of cause and effect eye find myself having to trust the universe and its mysterious ways more than ever. Also, with this Covid-19 crisis and not being able to work said jobs eye am seeing the importance of creating trust and consistency with my own content. This is an ongoing struggle and things are so unpredictable right now, but Eye’m grateful for the many lessons that are trickling in. Grateful to be where eye am. Thank you for holding this space. Please remember to wash your hands, stay home or at least away from others you don’t normally cohabit with and think of your fellow human. We really are in this together.