By Mac Guerreiro
My OCD-esque personality decided to make sure the yoga blocks were organized. We did this knowing he was watching and when we finished his snicker rang from behind us, as expected. It was then that an epiphany happened upon my mind, then my body and finally my heart: eye no longer happen in a vacuum.
Before eye continue eye must clarify because none of us truly do. We are always affecting one thing or another no matter what and that is the way of the world, but something happens when you’re the hermit type. We end up existing mostly, solely around ourselves and therefore it feels as if this existence takes place in a vacuum of sorts. Part of the epiphany’s impact had to do with my energy being that of the Yin, the feminine, so let’s dive into that before bringing it full circle.
The way of Yin and Yang is simple: the Yin, a free flowing creative energy moves about like an ocean while the Yang, a masculine forward moving energy focuses like an arrow. Together they act as a container (Yang) and its substance (Yin). The masculine energy thrives when it has something to contain and focus upon while the feminine energy feels safe to take her creativity to its limits when she’s safely held. It’s a symbiotic relationship, they’re interdependent.
In the moment that started this post it became clear to me that a primary benefit of this interdependence is this feeling of coexisting as the Yin to his Yang. The ocean to his reefs and cliffs all so strong that even my most thunderous storms couldn’t break out and over them. In that moment, my epiphany was that everything eye do is now witnessed by his energy whether he is there physically or not.
Like a baby that feels safe to play independently when her parent is around Eye’m realizing that eye can play, REALLY play knowing his firm edges will be there to catch my soft ones. It’s not all surrender as eye ease into this realization, there’s certainly resistance too… what if’s and the like, but then eye return to that moment, to the snicker and to my smile as eye realized with heart, body and mind that this reward is worth every risk.