By Mac Guerreiro

26 inches,
Eye don’t love that eye know that,
Sometimes eye feel that eye should throw away the tape measure,
But then eye fear another one would find its way to me like an undesired hidden treasure,
25 is better,
24 is best,
Both feel unattainable,
And that feels shameful,
How dare the skinny girl veer away from her brand?
When did 1-2 inches start to feel like 10?
When did eye start to obsess over the space between my chest and hips?
Well when did eye start to obsess like this?
When did eye acquire an eating disorder?
Or have eye always had one?
Better question,
What do eye do?
How do eye keep kindness in my heart when in my mind a critic runs loose,
Reminding me of my inability to follow through,
Say one thing,
Do another,
No wonder we don’t trust each other,
One wants comfort and pleasure now,
She reaches for food because as far as pleasure goes that’s her how,
The other sees that this no longer works,
How it was simply a coping mechanism to curb the hurt,
Reach for something yummy and trick myself into feeling connected,
Through the trickery eye end up feeling rejected,
So they don’t see eye to eye,
And attempting to help them feels like it’ll be my demise,
Eye’ve thought of asking for assistance,
But to impose my choices on another even for a short time induces a lot of resistance,
Experiencing this lack of self discipline makes me feel so out of touch,
Yet asking for aid feels like asking for too much,
But eye have to stop kidding myself,
Eye need help.

Published by Mystical Mac

Born in Brazil and raised in California eye am an artist better identified as a conscious creator and intuitive healer. My gift for storytelling in various forms as well as my keen perception into the metaphysical allows me to share my perspective in ways that eye hope are of help and use to those around me. Thank you for reading, listening and watching; it means the world to me.

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