Pawn to Queen

By Mac Guerreiro

“Where attention goes, energy flows,”
That saying has been running through my mind lately,
It’s time eye get real about how eye feel,
What eye truly want,
They say “you like what you like,”
But eye know it’s more simple than that,
We love what we reject,
We’re drawn to it,
It pulls us closer in order to be discovered,
But those attractions are often explosive,
And they don’t seem to last,
Or rather,
Eye seem to outgrow them fast,
They’re also usually my doing,
Meaning eye’m pursuing,
And eye’m officially done with that,
Because eye deserve better,
This means keeping a focus,
On myself,
On my health,
On my energy,
Until someone comes along that actually wants to get to know me,
Not just my body,
Men solely focused on that are a dime a dozen,
And to be honest,
Eye’m so over them,
The flirty eyes that also work the room as they talk to you,
A flirtationship that never ends,
Yet he doesn’t ask to see you again,
The suspicion that caring at all is a grave mistake,
The thick and evident air of heartbreak,
Eye used to think that eye could take that on,
Yet those were battles eye rarely won,
Because for me,
Caring isn’t simply a possibility,
It’s an inevitability,
And while they just play their game,
Eye find myself getting invested all the same,
Even when eye know it’s insane,
Getting real,
How do eye really feel?
What do eye want from the unavailable ones?
To be the one that leaves them undone,
Whatever that means,
But now eye see,
It’s not worth the risk,
My heart is too tender,
Unlike his,
So we veer the attention away,
Let them watch my hips sway,
But never get close enough to touch,
For eye’m finally learning to value this heart of mine far too much.

Published by Mystical Mac

Born in Brazil and raised in California eye am an artist better identified as a conscious creator and intuitive healer. My gift for storytelling in various forms as well as my keen perception into the metaphysical allows me to share my perspective in ways that eye hope are of help and use to those around me. Thank you for reading, listening and watching; it means the world to me.

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