by Mac Guerreiro
Eye hold on to things. In my childhood this manifested in holding on to literal objects. If it weren’t for my mom always making sure eye got rid of things eye would have been a total pack rat. In my adult life sometimes that manifests in relationships; for example, when someone acts in a way that eye have a hard time understanding or when eye feel there’s a lack of closure coming from the opposite end eye tend to hold on. This pattern shows itself in my relationship with food as well. Eye love the way eye feel and look when eye’m eating well, but somehow the fries and sugary drinks/treats call me back and for a second eye succumb hard core. Then find myself cleansing my way out of it because it feels like the only choice.
Eye’ve been contemplating why this is. What do eye get from holding on to these habits, people, and things? Maybe a sense of safety and familiarity. Eye know what a life with these things in it looks like and that’s comfortable. Thing is that after being “comfortable” in my less than healthy habits for a while now eye am more thrilled and curious to see what my life looks like when every decision comes from a pure intention and heart-centered place.